Merry Christmas!

Fascinating

The Fertile-Focus microscope is the most amazing little instrument I have bought in a while. I actually saw ferning today. When I saw it this morning, I told dh to come look at the difference and he thought it was awesome too. He wants to put other things on it to see how they look now. LOL We have been watching too much Dexter I guess, because he wants to see what blood looks like that close up. I haven't let him do it yet. ;o)

On another note, I'm kind of enjoying my break from ttc. I haven't been worrying all month about when would be the optimal time for bding. I'm almost thinking of putting it off longer, but I'm sure that I will probably change my mind again next month. I tend to do that a lot. ;oP

Early Christmas Present

I am so lucky to have the most wonderful husband in the whole world! Last night, he surprised me with a very early Christmas present. He knew that I wanted a new rocker-recliner if we were going to have another baby. So, last night he brought home an Ashley leather rocker-

recliner that matches our couch exactly.

The picture is tan, but our is dark brown. It is wonderfully comfortable and hopefully it will get a lot of good use when the baby comes. :)

ashleyfurniture.com

Fertile Focus Has Arrived

The new gadget I ordered has arrived today. I decided to try it out when it came this morning to see if I could see anything. It has surpassed my expectations! You can see, as clear as day, the results. I knew I wouldn't be fertile at this time and the lens showed the "non-fertile" view almost exactly as it shows on the brochure. You can adjust it to your vision. It is just neato and for the price, is an exceptional buy! I'm am very pleased. As I get closer to my fertile time, I will update to see how well I can see the "ferning" process.

Bad Day

Today has not been a very good day for me. I can't quit crying and all day I have been extremely sick to my stomach. I keep thinking, maybe I can't have anymore children. I know that it will happen when God wants it to happen, so I shouldn't even worry. I'm not capable of not worrying. I'm a worry-wart! How do I talk myself into not being so obsessive? I don't know what is wrong with me today. Maybe I'm coming down with something. Too much pressure on me. I wish I could be more like my husband. He never worries or at least he doesn't let it affect him. I think one main reason it bothers me so much is because I want all of my children to know my Dad and time is running out.

New Gadget

I have ordered something new to add to my list of things to help me conceive.

The Fertile-Focus





http://www.fertile-focus.com/





It looks nifty. It might be a waste of money, who knows. I will try it out and definately post about it.

We don't want you here Aunt Flow!

I thought everything was going so well this time. My chart looked beautiful. Perfect timing and even triphasic! Damn if AF didn't come today. It is so disheartening. Especially, since we do not want to try next month. If we did and succeeded, we would have three children in the month of September 3 days or less apart.
So, we have decided to hold-off until January. If it doesn't happen then, we are going to try again in April. Here's hoping I get lucky on my birthday. :) For now, I guess I will try to enjoy the freedom I have with my body. For the past four years, I have been pregnant, breastfeeding, or TTC. It's been a long time since it has just been me to worry about. Maybe I'll go party or something. ;oP