21 Weeks

It's all downhill from here. We are officially over the half-way mark. Last week I was able to let others feel the baby move. The first person was Hannah. We were lying in bed reading our night time story and it just started moving all over the place. So, I thought I would let Hannah see if she could feel it and it pushed her hand off of my belly. She said, "That baby is strong!" I have read somewhere that I am not suppose to be feeling movements on the outside yet, but I beg to differ because they are very strong. Sometimes, especially when I lay down, they are so strong they make me jump.
I'm getting that itch that I get every time I'm pregnant that makes me want to do something to myself to make me look better. I cut my hair the other night. I probably shouldn't have, but I just want something to make me feel better about myself. It really didn't work. It just made me feel worse. It will pass. It always does. My belly still doesn't want to poke out far enough to where it is obvious to others that I am pregnant. Instead it just looks like I eat all of the cakes I bake, instead of selling them. Not really that bad, but that is how I feel. I remember when I was 20 weeks with Hannah, Mom and I took a trip to the AL outlet mall. When we stopped at a gas station, the clerk at the gas station noticed I was pregnant. My belly is just not poking out as far as it did with my last two pregnancies.
I'm still on that emotional roller coaster. I don't remember that being as bad the times before either. I swear, there are not many minutes throughout the day that I don't feel like crying. Tim was asked the other day, whether or not we were going to keep trying if this one was not a boy and he replied with an enthusiastic yes. I hope he was joking because I am not going through this again if it is not a boy. This is my final time to be pregnant. I only have three years until the big 3-0 and I am not going to be pregnant in my 30's. At least, I feel strongly now that three is more than enough. We are still trying to figure out how we are going to make enough room for all of us in this house. I guess we will just have to be a very close family for a while.